Sorry my last post was so long (sorry guys, i did notice it was quite lengthy, next time I’ll try to split it up a bit more or something), but this one is much shorter. (I have to also mention I am feeling quite starstruck after having recieved comments from fillyjonk of Shapely Prose Thank you so much!)

…… (back to post lol)

So it was my mom’s turn to pick out a movie for Netflix, and she wanted to see “Elizabeth” (She also wants to see the one that just came out in October too, but guess she’ll have to wait for that). I was actually interested, so I decided to watch it (Having the same first name makes me interested- not to mention how she was a woman who ruled England.)

I really enjoyed the movie. I have always been a fan of historically based movies (even if they aren’t always accurate, i still enjoy them). This was definitely a good movie, very inspiring, very feminist.

“I am not your Elizabeth. I am no man’s Elizabeth. And if you think to rule here, you are mistaken. “

Love that line. There were a bunch of other lines that I thought were excellant as well, but I couldn’t find them on any quote pages for the movie online.

I just got my hair cut on Wednesday, and I have been feeling pretty low in the self-esteem department since. It’s not as though my hair was really long to beging with, it hasn’t been long since I was 8. It’s weird, it was as though I just felt that this time it was too short, I look awful, girls should have long hair, short hair is bad and not feminie. It was really weird how i felt. My hair was only cut slightly shorter, but it felt as though it was so much more. I’ve even had my hair much shorter than it is now, but i felt all these negative thoughts coming back from a few years ago.

It kinda reminds me of how people will congratulate you when you lose weight, and it’s like “wasn’t I fine before?” kinda thing… At the begining of this year my hair wasn’t super long, shoulder length-ish, but everyone was all “your hair looks so nice now that it’s long” and stuff, and now I just feel like “oh Liz, you are so stupid! Getting your hair cut short AGIAN, it will never ever grow back and you look horrible blahblahblah”..

But anyway (I swear this is relevant to the movie), watching this movie really helped me accept my new hair cut. When i saw the scene near the end (sorry to spoil) when she cuts off all her hair, I felt really proud of my short hair. I think my mother said something that women didn’t cut their hair back then or something, and it just made me feel proud. I can cut my hair short! woo! It doesn’t have to be long, just like I don’t have to be anything other than what I want to be. I don’t need to have long flowing locks of hair to be beautiful. I shouldn’t feel the need to have my hair long just to make myself appealing to random men I don’t even know, why should I care wether they like my hair or not? So long as I like it, then it’s fine. I don’t need to look like Barbie to be beautiful. I just have to be me. Elizabeth didn’t tolerate male assholes, she ruled the way she wanted and demanded respect. Not to mention the fact that she never did marry any man, she was independant (personally, i would like to find a loving husband someday, but i would never marry someone who did not treat me equally- I wish I could be independent though, I don’t know if I could be that strong).

Seriously, Elizabeth just kicked ass, plain and simple.