Another hair post lol.

Soooo.. I’ve been thinking about this for awhile (okay, a few days lol).

I feel like I want to just chop off my hair. I’ve gotten it cut a few times this year. It was actually the longest its been since I first got it cut in third grade back in October. Then I got it cut short in the back and kept the bangs. Like Rihanna hair cut but the curly version. I really liked that one actually. Then I got it cut just a little bit shorter.

But the last time I got it drastically cut short was before 11th grade, after I broke up with my boyfriend. My hair had been getting longer, and after the breakup I just wanted to get rid of it all. It was a wonderful feeling, chopping it all off. Then I went to school and felt crappy about my hair, since short hair isn’t “hot” in high school anyway. (That was also before I got into Body/Fat Acceptance stuff, so my self image had not yet improved).

I went from this- my hair long enough to be tied back-(this picture is me at teh Prom! I’m not with the boy anymore, but damn that was an awesome dress- which my grandma made too! I was def. saucy lol):

To this:

 

(lol, look at my crappy pose XD!) I AM A CAMI WHORE!! lol.

Those pictures are almost (will be in August) two years old.

So I dunno..

I feel like I just want to get it all chopped off. Go to college fresh and crap lol. Not have to deal with my hair in the morning (bleh).

But, at the same time, I feel like now that I actually have grown my hair out, I like the curls, the poof lol. It’s crazy, but I like it that way. Like it’s my “trademark” or whatever lol. The part of me that says “short hair won’t be porportionate to your fat ass” is hanging around too. I guess sometimes I feel like I need my hair to be longer because it balances me out. I hate that voice though. It really needs to just die. Then I go around online to look for short hair pictures, and the advice is that short hair is for women with “pixie like features” or whatever- meaning little nose, big eyes, those feature that I do not have. Plus, everytime I get my hair cut short, I regret it the next week and think “if I hadn’t cut my hair, it would be *insert length here* long by now”.

I don’t know if I even like my hair long. I’ve never managed to get it past my shoulders, ever. My mom got me to get it cut short in 3rd grade, and ever since then it’s been short. So, all the time i’ve had short hair when I was younger I don’t know if I ever really wanted it, I was just doing what my mom wanted me to do. (Like when your mom makes you eat vegetables and you hate them, but once they stop making you you realize you actually like them. lol).
And here I am, as an 8 year old (I think lol), with my short hair. Aren’t I cute?

I always find women who have short hair to be awesome. They’re different. I feel like I can always relate to them right away lol, since I always had shorter hair growing up. It takes some guts to have short hair, because it’s not “hot” or whatever. I like being different, it’s more fun. But again, that’s where my stupid voice comes in and says that short hair will just make my face look chubbier or whatever. I feel like I’m one of those stupid girls you see on TV who is afraid to get her hair cut. I don’t like being like that, like my hair is a safety blanket or something.

I’m just scared if I get it cut I’ll hate it and I’ll miss ”my” curls. But then I think that I want something different. And then I also think that my hair will grow back if I hate it. But then I think that I want to be “hot” at college. Then I think I don’t give a shit about that and I want to go to college to learn, not to find a future husband. Then I think it will be nice not to have to deal with my hair in the morning, and it will be so much cooler in the hot summer. Plus my head won’t be weighed down as much lol. And if I have short hair I can show off my cute chubby face, or show off earrings, or use makeup since you will actually be able to see it. I just want to feel FRESH and FREE! lol. And now that prom has passed, I don’t need to worry about doing anything with my hair for awhileeee. I also wouldn’t mind shedding my high school hair. Bleh, it’s over! I want it GONE lol.

The pluses seem to outweigh the minuses, but I’m still worried I won’t like it and I’ll be fugly forever! (stupid voice. DIE!) Which is, obviously, a stupid thought lol. Just the inner idiot talking.

So anywho, wondering what you gals/guys think. (lol, this is probably just me posting to have people tell me that I will look great with short hair! You know, when you say something to someone else just so they back you up on it? lol..) but anywho, do tell me what you think, and give reasons. (I mean, don’t just say “short hair is ugly!”… erm, that does not help.)

And here for your entertainment is Lizzie through the ages (lol, more like from 6th to 12th grade)

And I will be posting graduation pics, hopefully tomorrow. I just wanted to get these hair thoughts out of my head. I’m not going to the hairdresser for awhile- we don’t even have our next appointment made yet- but I feel like I really want to do it and wanted to know your thoughts. (since the hair coloring post was made alittle late lol). (I will also do the book post sometime soon. Now that I have all summer to do nothing lol)

Thanks for any thoughts/ advice!