Soooooooooo.. I had my appointment last night.

And I got it all cut off.

And boy oh boy I am glad that I did.

I can actually run my fingers through my hair. It is wonderful!

I am a bit worried after I wash it.. Because hair looks great when the hairdresser does it, but when I am forced to do it on my own… ehhh not so much. I am still shocked at how straight it looks. All she did was stick some smoothing gel in it, and pull it out while blowdrying it, then put some other straightening/smoothing cream (and she said to straighten it out alittle more with a straighter/curling iron if you have too).. Which is good, because I don’t like straightening my hair very much (with a straightener kind of thing). If i can get my hair to come out the way it is in those pics, I am going to have a blast styling it.

And omg my head feels SO much lighter!!

I think I have realized that I am just not made for long hair. I think it can look gorgeous, just as short hair can, but I cannot stand the feeling of having hair on my neck. I just can’t. It unnerves me too much. Plus, this will be soo much nicer while I am in South Carolina on vacation in less than 2 weeks.

(Plus, this cut looks totally cute with my pink glasses!)

My mom said it makes me look older and more sophisticated. Which is good, because I am sick of people thinking my 14 year old sister is the one going off to college. That is SO ANNOYING!

Anyway, probably nothing new from me till Sunday. I have to work tonight (I will be my 3 out of 4 training days.. I’m so scared! I only have two more days left with someone else there! AHH! I’m so nervous I will mess up or not know the answer or not know what to do! And I HATE feeling that way. I mean, I feel like I know quite a bit more than when I started (when I knew nothing), but at the same time I feel like there is so much that I don’t know. Then again, I think about it so much everything will probably be drilled into my brain soon. Seriously, when I go to sleep I start thinking about work, what I know, what I did, what I don’t know, what I wish I knew.. At 2 in the morning I was still thinking about it, so I turned on my laptop and typed up a list! A LIST! My craziness manifests itself. Atleast it did help, since I stopped thinking about it.

And, apparently we are going to Hersheypark tomorrow (Thanks for letting me know, family!). I do want to go on the new coaster they have, but at the same time, the aggravation that going to Hersheypark instills makes it seem not worth it. I cannot STAND my mother on these kinds of trips! It sucks the fun out of everything and just makes everyone miserable. Not to mention, I am working tonight, Hersheypark tomorrow, then working again on Saturday! Ugh, I guess work is just making me have a nervy spazz, when I really needn’t bother.

I just hate being in new situations and not knowing how to react to them, or what to do, or what I should be doing. I guess I just have to learn to be confident in my abilities. I mean, my dad told me that even if I make a mistake I “will not be the downfall of the entire Target coorporation”. Which is true. At worst I’ll run a little late- the lady training me said I am very personable and do a good job, just need to be a little faster, but that will come with time. Thinking about it now, I have learned a great deal in only 2 days of working there. I havn’t messed up majorly yet. I just feel like there are so many little things that could go wrong or that i won’t know. But I guess I can always press the nifty assistance needed button on the register. I hate being on the spot and not knowing what to do though… I panic.

Well, atleast I will have awesome hair.