Well, so much for my plan of writing something every day… I was never sure what to write about and then we had computer troubles for a week or so and I couldn’t go online at all .. So now I’m here not sure what to write about. I don’t know why, but before I used to get really pissed off at things that were of the anti-fat nature, and now I just make an exasperated noise and avoid said things. Like if I’m watching TV and diet commercial comes on, I just change the channel. While I know on some level it does piss me off quite a bit, I’ve seen so many of the same thing I just don’t know what to do about it other than to not listen to it, because I don’t have to listen to bullshit. I feel the same way about trolls and/or douchebags who leave their douchebaggerish comments on my blog. I just can’t bring myself to care anymore if another person is telling me how “fat and lazy and ugly” I am. But same goes for the comments, on some level they just piss me off (and if I were to be having a bad body image day, I’m sure they could do worse than pissing me off). So recently I’ve just been marking troll comments as what they really are- spam. 

But for old time’s sake, let’s take a look at some recent comments:

From lovely named Anon Y. Mous (seriously, suchhhhh and original and clever name!)

this is gross
i think i threw up alittle
im chubby wweighing 130 but i would never ever wear a bikini if i looked like you
LOSE WEIGHT FAT LARD

blahblahblah, you’re not the first person who “thinks they threw up a little”. Seems to happen all the time. I might as well provide free buckets for everyone! WOO! And please, I would love for you to project your feelings about yourself on to me some more! WOO! Not to mention your instructions for doing what you suggest are so motivating! Really, everything will be perfect if I just lose weight? Like I haven’t had that “suggested” to me a million fucking times before? Oh Anon Y. Mous, you are so motivating to me! After you called me a fat lard and threw up in your mouth it really motivated me because I want to please you oh Anon Y. Mous one.

you don’t look obese at all, just curvey!
you are reallllly pretty and your smile is adorable!

Now this comment is nothing like the first one, but I still have problems with it. The fact of the matter is that I AM obese. The reason you don’t think I look it is because BMI is so fucked up (please, see here) and the only time you see fat people on TV is when they show specials about “1 ton mom” or something similar. This comment really is not that bad, but I feel the need to clarify. I get so many comments on this post about how “you’re not obese! just curvy” nature that I felt the need to address it. So I am. I AM OBESE. That’s how the fucked up system labels me- it’s a fact. I feel like if people are ever going to recognize how fucked up BMI is, they have to accept the way it categorizes people in order to accept it’s fucked-up-ness. 

Okay, one more for now.

this is the first time i have visited your website – i am 31 years old and looking at you, i do not see “fat” – i see pretty, stylish and from reading, smart and articulate.

This comment is more along the lines of the comment above- it’s not outright insulting, but it is insulting. The comment is basically saying that “fat” does not or cannot equal pretty and stylish- as though it were an impossibility. The “fat” most people see is the fat always potrayed- the slobby, unattractive, stupid, and always eating stereotype. That’s not what “fat” is. And it isn’t an impossibility to be both fat and stylish or pretty or whatever (not that you have to be pretty to be a worthwhile person in this society or anything…). I am “fat”, and I am also stylin’ and smart . I think they fit together perfectly fine.

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fat. Fat. FAT.fAt. FAt. FATTTTTTTTT! There I said it six times and six different ways! (Hope you didn’t throw up again Anon Y. Mous!)

And on a final note, here is the beautiful and elegant FAT statue on my college campus. I took this picture when the cherry blossoms were in full bloom. I will always love my college for having this statue- it makes me smile every time I see it.