I think I’m going to officially declare this blog to be on a hiatus- I haven’t posted anything in a month and a half. A few things have come up- mostly I just don’t have the time to think of something to post and to actually write a post, etc. Trying to focus on school, and I just don’t really know what to write about. Been feeling a bit of a slump in my body image recently (It seems like this happens all the time). I don’t know, I’m just not feeling it right now. I feel like I’m suffering from ‘wishing-her-body-were-the-way-it-was-when-I-first-felt-good-about-it’. I remember I finally started to feel good about myself after I had been going to Curves for awhile back like 3-4 years ago (I can’t believe it’s been that long), and I weighed like 60 pounds less than I do now. I don’t want to be ’skinny’, I guess I just wish I still looked the way I did then. I wish I didn’t feel that way, but I do. I hate to say I’m ‘changing some of my habits’ for a diet, but it seems like I am…
I guess I’m just at an unsure point right now. I need to focus on my schoolwork mostly. So I guess this is all for now….
I can totally understand where you are coming from and how you are feeling. this is the time of year it seems to start happening alot more for me too. I do know that doing movement of some kind that you really enjoy is a good way to help bring back that feeling of love for your body cause you get to have fun with it. One thing that I am trying to do is to find one thing a day that I love about me, and sometimes it is haaaard often times I have to fall back on loving my hair cause I just can’t see anything else but at least that is something. I have also been starting to really look at what I put into my body, not restrict but really think about how it is making me feel and replacing the things that don’t make my body feel good with things that do. I am just trying to focus more on listening to my body letting it tell me when it is truly hungry and only eating as much as it needs. I guess overall I am just trying to be nicer to my body. I think for me a lot of this is brought on by the season with winter the sun kind of goes away a bit and I think that brings on those feelings much more for me. So I moved my room around so my desk is right by the window, I also got a desk lamp from I think Target that simulates sunlight and I have that right above me plus I upped the wattage in my other bulbs and brought in another lamp and that brightness has seemed to help my emotions. Just take care of your body, instead of making it your enemy, love it, care for it, make it your friend. The more you treat it with respect, care, kindness, and love, the more you do start to view it in a much nicer light. What your feeling is pretty normal though and is something that is fostered in us by the media and commercial industries cause the worse they can make us feel the more we buy into all the stuff they try to sell us. It will pass though you will find that love for you and your body again… I have found that sometimes I just gotta court myself a bit lol. i hope things start looking up for you!
By: scattered marbles on October 27, 2009
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